Life of a small boar

Just want to share with you all, something I produced during the one hour Signal&System lecture today.

Starts with a smile, ends with a yawn
Indicating the enthusiasm, initially
Grasp within a thin net, eventually
Net is loaded, thread stretched
And no matter how hard we try
Lost in dreamland we all end

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Signal, continuous or discrete
Yearning of no sort I have for it
Signal, analogue or digital
Tear my sanity, limb to limb
Exponential, with or without omega
Made on Earth, I'm sure, not for me

One of the most inspirational verse I heard during the sermon in Hope Church, Ipoh last Sunday is this.

*Conscience is like a triangle in our heart which turns whenever we sin. The sharp points of the triangle will then hurt us and we know that we had done something wrong. However, if we keep sinning, the sharp edges will wear off and we will soon feel and fear nothing when we sin.*

That is like our skin without the pain detector. If we feel nothing when we're cut amd thus do nothing about it, we will soon bleed to death. So lets pray that we have clear conscience at all time.

The only facilitators I like in this orientations are those from the Religious and Moral Department, and a few from the welfare Department. The rest are super snobby, especially those from the Ragging department. Uncivilized, rude, ill-mannered, and pure barbaric. Some of the R&M faceys are really nice though, they helped us a lot when we needed help, advice and transport. I hate most of the M bunch. Brainless.

There was fire drill yesterday, at 4am. Then they splashed water at us with the fire engine's water hose. We brought umbrella with us, but the stupid facilitators don't allow us to use the umbrella and they purposefully sprayed forceful water on us because we had umbrella = =" which results in my roommate having fever as high as 39.1 degree Celsius now.

I somehow sprained my arm, from the shoulder to the tip of my finger. It felt pulled and hurt quite a lot when I place my arm at a certain angle or position. I went to see the doctor as well, and he gave me some vitamin B complex and an oilment to rub on my arm. I like the oilment. It smells like sarsi with mint =P Then the head of R&M brought me and my roommate back to our hostel, telling us to rest and not to join the activities tonight. What a wonderful guy. You can imagine our gratitude =)

This week had been kinda terrible. Still, it won't trample my spirit, will and determination to enjoy and make the most out of my years here in UTP!!!!! =)

3rd day in UTP. It’s beautiful, the buildings built by UTP itself. The old buildings left by USM are so-so. Similar to those of other government universities. UTP has the most magnificent library I’ve ever seen. The stretches of glasses that make up the walls, the flights of racks of books, it’s stunning, and the lighting outside, between the chancellor hall and the library caught my breath the first time I set my eyes on them. I know I’m going to love it here.

However, I just wish that this orientation week will pass in a flash. I hate the late night talks and activities. I hate having to walk back to our hostel which is 15 to 20 minutes from the chancellor hall, have lunch or dinner and be back at the chancellor hall in 1 hour. What madness? This totally leaves me hungry all the time. The orientation food is good though. What I dislike most is still the extremely rude discipline facilitator who shouts rudely at you if you dare to smile at him while he’s talking on the stage. He screamed rudely at the international students for not tucking in their shirts, and is always responsible for holding us back past 1am. Stupid man!! I think he needs to be disciplined!!!!!

I'm in KL!!! =)

LCCT, KL central, the buss, the jam.. everything seems so familiar, and nostalgic. 3 years, I spent 3 years here... Ok, I'm not going to start another time pass bla bla bla post.

So, at my sis's house now, going UTP tomorrow.

Hope I get a nice roomate. =P

Life may not be perfect, but it definitely isn't dull, espeacially when God's your leader.

I was thinking about changing my course to ICT. Initially, I had wanted to apply for software engineering. However, I couldn't find it under the number of choices given. So i applied for E&E, and that's what Petronas gave me. Later, I found out that ICT majors in software engineering and my heart have been itching to change course. what made me hesitate though, is that ICT is not pure software, and there are more to it such as business, and technologies. I needed to confirm what I'll be studying if I do change my course, but there was no one to ask. The only and best person to ask is Edrea, and she's not here in Malaysia. i didn't know what to do.

Lat night, I had a dream. I dreamt that I met Edrea at a school gathering, and I asked her what I wanted to know. She told me that although there is a large portion of software in ICT, the business and technologies parts are not something I can ignore as well, and there are quite a lot of memorizing. She advised me that if the only reason I want to change is because I like programming, then I shouldn't, for E&E does has its share of programming too. Then I woke up, feeling certain God had reassured my path again. I'm so blessed.

I got PETRONAS SCHOLARSHIP!!! =)

I'm so happy. I thank all of you who prayed for me. This is the power of group prayers =) Hehe... Leaving next week on the 11th. Really looking forward to it. Edrea, I'm coming =P

It's a shame, that I took so long to learn humility. Had I not let my pride took over 3 years ago, had I rely on God and not my strength, I might, I might get this scholarship then, and not waste these 3 years. However, He knew what I needed, for if I had success then, I would only add size to my already big, conceited head. He made me see that true strength is only revealed when I step down and gave Him the throne to lead my life. I got what I wanted, perhaps it is also the road He wanted me to take, but which was delayed due to my ego.

However, it's not fair to make it sounds like I suffered the 3 years I spent in UTM. I enjoyed every minute of it. The laid-back lifestyle, the friends I made, and meeting one of the most important person in my life =) it's like an extra class/lesson i needed to get on to the next level, and I did have a great time attending the class =P

Totally new environment with totally new faces, I'm thrilled =) May God guide me through every minute of my time there like He did till now.