Life of a small boar

Here I contribute an idea for your birthday present. So now you can ask another friend to contribute the present ^.^


*sorry chabo, I couldn't do something more fancy here coz I'm in the midst of finals. Still, wish you all the best and may God showers you with rains of blessings. Hugs

I didn't know I was thirsty,
until I tasted water again.

The water of life is ever so sweet.

*Actually, I wrote this years ago back in 2004. I came across it again when I read my xanga blog few days ago, and I think it's a good reminder to myself how much the Lord has done for me over the years.

For years I roamed the deserted land

Pondering the reason being forsaken

Now I understand the miracle done

For indeed I am the blessed one

I do not belong to the Earthly world

For of all those numerous girls

I belong to Jesus, my life and soul

Cause he once bought me, his life sold

Never grief the rejection here

Our home is where the angels stay

The time will come when Jesus will say

You're coming home, yes today's the day

So mourn no more over physical misfit

God created us different and unique

Praise the Lord for the love He pours

Which gently opened our locked heart-doors

Do I look like a pretty South African?
I know I'm pretty dark, yet fair by their standard, still.....

Question of the day:
Why do I keep attracting the blacks!!!!

I know it's all my fault
I know I deserve it
If you can't give me an encouragement, the least you can do is not to condemn my effort

I was tagged by Edrea, quite a few days ago. Was abit lazy to do it.... but here goes..

Here are the rules. To tag along: you have to list 7 weird things about yourself, post it in your blog, tag at least 7 people (list their names), and comment on their blog to let them know that you just tagged them.

1. I like to day dream. It's like an hobby. I'll get really frustrated if I don't have the time to stare into spaces and dream of nonsense or the impossible at least 30 minutes each day. The most frequent place I day dream - in the car, which explains why I never know the way to
anywhere =P

2. I like to make up, but not wearing the make up. I have a set of make up accessories, which I like to try different matching and styles, but I seldom wear make up outdoor. It makes me feel uncomfortable, like wearing a mask or something. I'll lay with the make up, admire my own handwork, and wash them off.

3. I am described as an independent and dependent girl. (the sentence already shows how weird that sounds)

4. I can't eat a lot(there's just no space to store much), but I get fat easily.

5. Sometimes, I feel lonely in a crowd.

6. I must have my bed messy-looking to feel like home.

7. When I go KL nowadays, even the traffic jam makes me feel nostalgic.

Okie, time to tag, tag, tag......
1. Lee Shing
2. Josey
3. Jess
4. Liaw!!(I can't remember if edrea tagged you)
5. Mei Ling

(I'll just tag 5. Guess I like breaking rules =P)

Hmmm.... this wasn't what I planned to post this morning, but since the internet is so slow that I couldn't upload any pics, I decided to do this instead >.<

Tagged by Lee Shing, had to blog 8 Points About My Perfect Lover
INSTRUCTIONS:
1. The tagged victims have to come up with eight different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there’s no need to do this AGAIN.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE. FUN. DOING. IT.

Okie, straight to the point.
*The points are given randomly and not ranked. So the first is not the most important and vice versa. Because I find all these points important!!!

1# He MUST be taller than me. No matter how cute or good looking the guy is, if he's less than 5cm taller than me, he loose all appeal. I must be able to 'look up to him' physically ba.....

2# He must be hug-able, with body built slightly bigger than mine, so he can wrap me in his embrace when I need to lean on him. Skinny guys are a real turn-off.

3# He must be able to make me laugh/smile, especially when I'm stressed. I'm easily pressured when I'm loaded with tons of work, so he must be able to ease my strain.

4# He should seem high and mighty to the world, but must be willing to do stupid and crazy stuff with me, because that's the life I enjoy, to be impulsive, naughty and adventurous. He needs to be mature, but willing to do immature stuff with me. I find that real sweet =)

5# He must be able to connect or mix with my best friends. My gang is very important to me.

6# There are times that I can be really stubborn, naive, ignorant, or just feel like throwing tantrum. He needs to be able to tolerate with that and knows that I still love him. Love me with all your heart and I'll love you more than that.

7# Musical involvement. Actually, this is not a must, but it is a super bonus marks if he can play any musical instrument, preferbly a guitar. There's nothiing like a guy dedicating a song to you on the stage, singing and playing the guitar himself. Or composing a song for me. Will really sweep me off my feet.

8# Must be God-fearing. Naturally, he has to be a Christian. Our relationship must bring both of us closer to God and we must walk on God's path.

Tag-tag-tag..... tag who? *evil grin*
1. Edrea!!!(I've sure you can write a beautiful post on this *.^)
2. Liaw
3. Mei Ling
4. Jess(since you haven't done it after lee shiing's tag, i'll tag you again =P)
5. Joan
6. Merlvyn(only guy in the tag. see how your taste differ from the gals ^.^)
~no more people to tag la.... that's all la...~ hehe

It had been a long time since I last met a good coach/senior,
I've forgotten how much difference it makes
How good it feels, to have someone to turn to when I'm stuck somewhere, when all practice seems futile

I'm touched, by your sincerity
I'm determined, by your patience
I'm moved, by your gentle pushing
I'm stabled, by your confidence in me

Thank you for awaking the passion I wasn't aware I had for this
I really enjoy it, and a useful destressing tool
I once thought I'm a total musical retard
Thank you for letting me believe that I can(slightly =P)

It's gonna be hard without you next year, to guide me through every notes and tempos
and show me simpler ways of placing my fingers
But I will GAMBATEH!!!!!


*the first the make a difference in my life was Nai Lin
*later in Taekwon-do, Bartho is another who lit a blaze in me

I'll never forget you too...

Two little softie is added to the family during the Raya hols. They're both a birthday present as well as a replacement for the hammies I can't have. They're really nice to hug and my really turned my bed into a most romantic place for a date with mr.chow =D

This is Xixi

This is Lele

Which makes them XixiLele (XiLe carries the meaning of joy in chinese)

This thing is now officially my favorite spread.
I can finish one loaf of bread with just this. Only problem is, it's pure chocolate, in the shape of this bottle. So imagine the amount of chocolate i took to consume the loaf of bread. Good thing is, I don't where I can get a bottle of this thing (tried this at my sister's house), so I can't indulge in it to destress =P

Going back to UTP today.
Heaps and tons of things waiting for me... =(
The week sure past by fast...

20th September was Rotaract of UTP's 9th Installation Night, held in Ipoh City and Contry Club.

Wondering what I'm doing tying a scarf on my head? Well, the theme was A Scarf and A Tie Affair, and I didn't know what do with my scarf(hanging it anywhere on my body is just plain weird) so I decided to get creative =P

This is my favorite photo =D The girls's Yen Ping, my sheperd from Hope of Ipoh. I like the fact that somehow, we look blissful =P

I will post more photos on the night when I get my hands on them. The guitar performances, the breakdances, the beauty pageant, cat walk, and all other events. So keep anticipating!!! haha

A friend got me thinking.

Do you think it's worth getting all you want yet being put in a surrounding that you dislike?

Like being able to go to the university I want, having the scholarship I want, taking the course I want, yet lose all freedom and not being with people I want to be with.

Who can say what weigh more?

I guess only the one who made the decision can really judge. Given another chance, I believe I'll make the same decision. Coming to UTP enable me to take the course I want, the scholarship greatly lift my parent's financial burden and this separation motivates my dearest to strive for the better. So what if I'm a little unhappy compared to before? I guess sometimes, some things are worh the sacrifices. It's just the matter of how you see it. Knowing all these however, does not make me any happier. So what exactly weigh more?

Not in very good mood now as I was abruptly woken up this morning. To those of you who knows how important sleep is to me, and how I react to whomever dare to wake me up in the morning, you do know i'm being merciful not to throw anything within reach at her to shut her up. Especially after I specifically remind her not not wake me up before I was ready to. That is just so, Grrrrr......, since i expected a long beauty sleep. Guess she can't understand simple verbal words. Maybe next time I should write it down and attach it to her notice board. No, that might not be the first thing she sees. Should stick it to her toothpaste. Yes, that's decided.

Just so I don't waste the all of your time reading about me bitching(see how nice I am? =P ), here's some photos I have been meaning to post for the past few months. These are some of my prized possessions.

The preferred one


Name's Piggagoille! You can call him Pigga =P This is from Keat How.
Name sounds familiar to you? It was given to me after we watched Rattatoille =)


Look how cute he is, stucked at the edge of my bed. Haha
Love that big and round, sad, pleading eyes =)
This is from my ex-roommate. Really a farewell gift =P
She's called mei mei =)


Lovely, isn't she?

This is from my dad. No name. I call her Princess.


My dad got the brown one for Keat How.
Doesn't it look like beauty and the beast to you? =P


Well, my mood is much better now. Hungrrryy!!
Appetite's back. Good mood liao =)

Hey guys.... sorry for neglecting this place for a while. I had been quite busy. I had my 1st release out of UTP, Tronoh last weekend, and I had a blast in KL, and Skudai, Johor. I had a great time shopping, and window shopping. And convo was superb. Though it was hot and the 'grand dinner' UTM provided for first class holder wasn't much, it was so much fun meeting up with old friends again, especially my classmates. I'm so glad things hasn't change between us, we still cherish our courmate-ships, though we're scattered into 3 different classes now, with me being the furthest.

From the left, me, June, Emily.

Well, some guys for you to 'kap'
From the left, Keat How, Ah Ham, Jun Yik, Aik Loong, Kenny and Kai Siang.


These are my coursemates, and our favourite lecturer.
He's a real sport. He takes off his shoes and sit on the table when he teaches us lab =P
Guys who make face better than me,
2nd price, Aik Loong!!

The ten sisters, the pretty ones in UTM.. haha =D
1st row(sitting) from the left: Pak, Yen Li, June, Amy, May
2nd row: Stella, Wan Lin, Emily, Fei, Sarah

Look at us, I don't have to say much =P

One of my favourite pic, coz I appear small. hehe
My fav, fav 'da ge'.
I'm grateful to have him around for the past 3 years. Miss him a great deal.

UTM is HUGE!!! I hurts so much walking around in heels and the robe, my feet was so sore it still feels numb the second day, and there were so many hills, going up and down. I ended up taking off the heels and walking barefooted with the heels in my hands. Makes me real glas UTP's less than 1/3 the size of UTM. =D Still, a had an awesome time there.

Just want to share with you all, something I produced during the one hour Signal&System lecture today.

Starts with a smile, ends with a yawn
Indicating the enthusiasm, initially
Grasp within a thin net, eventually
Net is loaded, thread stretched
And no matter how hard we try
Lost in dreamland we all end

&

Signal, continuous or discrete
Yearning of no sort I have for it
Signal, analogue or digital
Tear my sanity, limb to limb
Exponential, with or without omega
Made on Earth, I'm sure, not for me

One of the most inspirational verse I heard during the sermon in Hope Church, Ipoh last Sunday is this.

*Conscience is like a triangle in our heart which turns whenever we sin. The sharp points of the triangle will then hurt us and we know that we had done something wrong. However, if we keep sinning, the sharp edges will wear off and we will soon feel and fear nothing when we sin.*

That is like our skin without the pain detector. If we feel nothing when we're cut amd thus do nothing about it, we will soon bleed to death. So lets pray that we have clear conscience at all time.

The only facilitators I like in this orientations are those from the Religious and Moral Department, and a few from the welfare Department. The rest are super snobby, especially those from the Ragging department. Uncivilized, rude, ill-mannered, and pure barbaric. Some of the R&M faceys are really nice though, they helped us a lot when we needed help, advice and transport. I hate most of the M bunch. Brainless.

There was fire drill yesterday, at 4am. Then they splashed water at us with the fire engine's water hose. We brought umbrella with us, but the stupid facilitators don't allow us to use the umbrella and they purposefully sprayed forceful water on us because we had umbrella = =" which results in my roommate having fever as high as 39.1 degree Celsius now.

I somehow sprained my arm, from the shoulder to the tip of my finger. It felt pulled and hurt quite a lot when I place my arm at a certain angle or position. I went to see the doctor as well, and he gave me some vitamin B complex and an oilment to rub on my arm. I like the oilment. It smells like sarsi with mint =P Then the head of R&M brought me and my roommate back to our hostel, telling us to rest and not to join the activities tonight. What a wonderful guy. You can imagine our gratitude =)

This week had been kinda terrible. Still, it won't trample my spirit, will and determination to enjoy and make the most out of my years here in UTP!!!!! =)

3rd day in UTP. It’s beautiful, the buildings built by UTP itself. The old buildings left by USM are so-so. Similar to those of other government universities. UTP has the most magnificent library I’ve ever seen. The stretches of glasses that make up the walls, the flights of racks of books, it’s stunning, and the lighting outside, between the chancellor hall and the library caught my breath the first time I set my eyes on them. I know I’m going to love it here.

However, I just wish that this orientation week will pass in a flash. I hate the late night talks and activities. I hate having to walk back to our hostel which is 15 to 20 minutes from the chancellor hall, have lunch or dinner and be back at the chancellor hall in 1 hour. What madness? This totally leaves me hungry all the time. The orientation food is good though. What I dislike most is still the extremely rude discipline facilitator who shouts rudely at you if you dare to smile at him while he’s talking on the stage. He screamed rudely at the international students for not tucking in their shirts, and is always responsible for holding us back past 1am. Stupid man!! I think he needs to be disciplined!!!!!

I'm in KL!!! =)

LCCT, KL central, the buss, the jam.. everything seems so familiar, and nostalgic. 3 years, I spent 3 years here... Ok, I'm not going to start another time pass bla bla bla post.

So, at my sis's house now, going UTP tomorrow.

Hope I get a nice roomate. =P

Life may not be perfect, but it definitely isn't dull, espeacially when God's your leader.

I was thinking about changing my course to ICT. Initially, I had wanted to apply for software engineering. However, I couldn't find it under the number of choices given. So i applied for E&E, and that's what Petronas gave me. Later, I found out that ICT majors in software engineering and my heart have been itching to change course. what made me hesitate though, is that ICT is not pure software, and there are more to it such as business, and technologies. I needed to confirm what I'll be studying if I do change my course, but there was no one to ask. The only and best person to ask is Edrea, and she's not here in Malaysia. i didn't know what to do.

Lat night, I had a dream. I dreamt that I met Edrea at a school gathering, and I asked her what I wanted to know. She told me that although there is a large portion of software in ICT, the business and technologies parts are not something I can ignore as well, and there are quite a lot of memorizing. She advised me that if the only reason I want to change is because I like programming, then I shouldn't, for E&E does has its share of programming too. Then I woke up, feeling certain God had reassured my path again. I'm so blessed.

I got PETRONAS SCHOLARSHIP!!! =)

I'm so happy. I thank all of you who prayed for me. This is the power of group prayers =) Hehe... Leaving next week on the 11th. Really looking forward to it. Edrea, I'm coming =P

It's a shame, that I took so long to learn humility. Had I not let my pride took over 3 years ago, had I rely on God and not my strength, I might, I might get this scholarship then, and not waste these 3 years. However, He knew what I needed, for if I had success then, I would only add size to my already big, conceited head. He made me see that true strength is only revealed when I step down and gave Him the throne to lead my life. I got what I wanted, perhaps it is also the road He wanted me to take, but which was delayed due to my ego.

However, it's not fair to make it sounds like I suffered the 3 years I spent in UTM. I enjoyed every minute of it. The laid-back lifestyle, the friends I made, and meeting one of the most important person in my life =) it's like an extra class/lesson i needed to get on to the next level, and I did have a great time attending the class =P

Totally new environment with totally new faces, I'm thrilled =) May God guide me through every minute of my time there like He did till now.

One thing I don't understand about these government universities, is why they need so many set of our certified certificates, and our passport size photos. We sent a set of our photyostated certs to them when we were applied for admission, now they need another set. What did they do with the previous set? Throw them away? And our photos, what do they want 10 of my passport photos for? To drool over them? Then every year when we apply for a place in the hostel, we need to give them another set of certs, not this much though, and 2 more passport size photos. The following year, another 2 photos. What did they do with the previous 2?

The ipta result is out. I got E&E in Skudai, Johor =P not the one I wanted most, but better than Electrical. I can't stand another 3 years of sudying 3-phase, generator, trnasformer, transmission line, you get me =) still, I will try to change my course to software engineering when I reach there. Leaving next week. Another new school, with a few familiar faces. It shouldn't be too bad. Looking forward to it =)

The Petronas Scholarsip interview is tomorrow. Hope that this time, I will actually get the scholarship, not just stuck at the interview level... Pray for me, peeps =D

I'm going back to Kuching tomorrow, which means very limited of internet access. So I might not be blogging for quite some times, might not even blog for the whole two months, but I'll try.

3 years in KL. It's over. Not sure where I'm going next sem. Wherever it's going to be, I'm sure it'll be a whole new experience, both exciting yet full of hardships. New surrounding, new people, new subjects, new uni. I'm looking forward to it =)

On a happier note, Kuching food, I'm BaCKKkkk !!!!

rmb ur scrunhy fetish? =)

Last paper. FINISHED!!!!

Going to enjoy, enjoy, ENJOY! =P

Going cameron on tuesday... strawberriesssss =)

Sometimes I wonder why we(most women) tend do shop or eat when we're stressed. Are we influenced by tv shows and dramas that usually show heart-broken ladies stuffing cheesecakes down their throats after spending outrageously on things we don't actually need?

Weird enough, we do have the urge to do exactly these when we're pushed hard on the other side. But what are we actually trying to do? What do we want to prove?

I believe that we are trying to take control on our lives where we still can. studies, work, projects, we might be pushed by deadlines where we had no choice but to work extra time or sacrifice some other things to satisfy our superiors. let off the hook, hot and frustrated, we try to show that we can and will still do whatever we want and tickles our fancy.

Shopping and eating being the two biggest pleasure of women's life, it gradually became two of the most forbidden. Shop too much, you'll be broke. Eat too much, you'll be fat. So after being deprived off these, it naturally became our source of solace when we're pressured, or when life is out of control.

Ironically, weren't we supposed to be controling ourselves from overdoing it, these sin-considered-acts for women nowadays? Letting loose all guards and losing ourselves in desires, aren't these losing grip for real?

chocolate dipping with chocolate rice

tiramisu

see the cream oozing out like there's endless?? yumm...

Its finger licking good =D