Life of a small boar

see the cream oozing out like there's endless?? yumm...

Its finger licking good =D

We were too busy eating in the begining we forgot to take pics of the first few donut bites. still, you saw how good they are =) Later, we went to watch forbidden Kingdom. It was kinda 'fei' but I like it, and the sceneries were very nice. Very magical. Li Bing Bing and Liu Yi fei were gorgeous. So I had a great time. Good break for this stressful period =)

The Electrical Power Test was giving me lots of stress. My craving for sugar increase tremendously under pressure, as usual. I went to the minimart to get myself some sweet. As I scanned through containers of different flavored sweets, my eyes rested briefly on a whole container full of Kopiko. Should have tempted me, but it didn't. It was then I realized I've out grown Kopiko long ago. I bought Polo Mint instead =P

I was doing bible reading few days ago when I came across this;

There are seven things that the Lord hates and cannot tolerate.
A proud look,
A lying tongue,
Hands that kill innocent people,
A mind that thinks up wicked plans,
Feet that hurries off to do evil,
A witness that tells one lie after another,
And someone who stirs up trouble among friends.
~Proverb 7:16 – 19~

These verses immediately caught my attention and had me in pensive. I had a brief self inspection, wondering if I had unconsciously fall into any of these pits, for if they are thing that the Lord cannot tolerates, then it wouldn’t do me good to be put in God’s black list.
I don’t mean that I’m totally free from the other six wrong doings, but I believe that the one I’m most guilty of, is the proud look. Not only do I have a proud look, but also a proud heart and thought. It’s no wonder that God had tried numerous times to humble me, but being my conceited self, I was blind to God’s loving lessons.

It all started with an 8A1s and 2B3s for SPM. I know most people will not consider this a bad result, but for me, it was a total disappointment. I expected better of myself. To explain this, I have to start from my early childhood.

I am a very blessed child, given a good brain and learning ability from God. Even now, mom still brags to willing ears how I started walking when I was only 9 months old, when most toddlers were only trying to stand firm on their legs. I graduated with flying colors in kindergarten, bombarded with the teachers’ praises and compliments.

When I was in primary school, I won plentiful competitions for my school. I represented my school in mathematics competition, storytelling competitions, public speaking, reading competition, essay writing competition, short put, netball, and the school prefect. I was labeled one of the school’s gem. Do you believe me if I say I did not getting all smug? Oh, and I obtained straight As for UPSR, the only one from my year among my relatives. Imagine my mom’s delight…. = =

I wasn’t that competitive anymore, when I was in secondary school. I did not take up that many competitions, nor did I study consistently anymore, burning midnight oils only a few days before each examination. However, the Lord blessed me with a good memory and I still did well, keeping my rank in the class within the top ten. My ability for fast learning enabled me to catch up with what the teacher taught in a short time even if I was far behind syllabus near exams. I was very impatient with mates who were slower, and did not understand why some people need a long time to grasp a concept. I was willing to teach others, but get really hot tempered when they don’t get what I was trying to say, because I did not appreciate my quick brain, and did not realize that not everyone was as lucky. By the end of form 3, I obtained another straight As, this time for PMR.

Although I joined Taekwon-do in form 2, it had no significance in my life until I was in Form 4. I was urged by a senior to join the state championship. Willing to give it a go, I started on an intensive training designed by the senior. With only two weeks of proper training, I came home with 3 gold medals and a silver. I was only a blue-belt holder then. Another 5 or 6 levels to black belt, and the lowest color in my category. However, I defeated most higher belt holders to victory. Everything that happened after that was a blur. I was still in daze over my win, and was later hand-picked by the instructor to join the state team’s training, a chance to be in the state team itself for the coming national ranked tournament. A blue belt holder among all those black belts. It was certainly a glorious moment. Taekwon-do turned into a large portion of my life overnight. After 6 months of competitions gruesome training, I was confirmed a place in the state team. Three more months later, I went to my first national-ranked tournament and came back with a gold medal.

All my successes put my head above the clouds. Although I don’t usually show it, I had full confident in whatever I do. Whichever goal I made, I was certain I was capable of achieving it. Yes, I did pray for God’s blessing before each test or competitions. I knew it was by God’s grace that my path was smooth. However, there were this tiny voice in my head that kept telling me that I was proficient, and very capable. I was proud. I knew these were all God’s blessings, but I was proud of even that, proud to have God’s blessing because I believed that God don’t just choose anyone to pour His blessing on. I was proud to be chosen.

So when I was on my way to school that morning, to see our SPM result, I was positive that I will attain another set of straight As. Therefore, for the first time in all those years, I was crushed. It felt like a race where I was leading and it was just a few meters to the finish line when I tripped over a small rock and fell face down. You wouldn’t see much impair, but it was down right embarrassing and and pride hurt big time.

That was God’s first attempt to humble me, but I did not learn, until much later.

Had my first final paper today - Industrial Automation and Robotics.... Sounds boring? It is...

I spent my entire day playing test twirl on facebook yesterday. In between, I ate snacks, played with my hamsters, ate snacks, loiter on net, had dinner... but I still did study a little la... and I believe it was quite enough to get A la... I actually finished studying a little after 12am, and spent 3 hours online reading blogs. That was when I discovered josey's and lee shing's blog. And it was last night I decided to take a look at Kenny Sia's blog. It was quite entertaining and some were really hilarious. The MMU prom night post had me roaring with laughter. After having a blast online, I yawned - sign that it was time to sleep. So I said good night to my hammies and climbed into bed. I had some small talk with God and closed my eyes blissfully. That was when..... I heard.... someone whispered urgently to me saying

'CALCULATIONS!'

OMG!! I forgot to study the calculation part for today's test. I quickly kicked my blanket aside, bolted up and started memorising the formulas. God, I'm so blessed.

Maybe, I should not again refer to such situations as;
~I heard a voice in my head saying....~
~I felt someone telling me tat...~
~A thought flashed through my mind, showing that....~

By now, I should have recognise these are God's words for me, helping me in my everyday life. Reminding me small things I forget, and gently tugging me back to the right path when I walk astray. God grants me such personal in intimate relationship although I'm not the least near perfection in His eyes. I am so blessed.

I found a stall in Wangsa Maju that sells very nice Sarawak Laksa and Kolo mee!!!
So happy. hehe..... Finally something to satisfy my cravings.
It's a shame I found that stall only during the last semester of my diploma. Still, late is better than never.

Laksa laksa laksa
Kolo mee
=P

Went to Green Box with Keat How yeasterday. His first time to ktv. My second. =)
It was fun. We had lots of drinks. Ribena, Laici, Soda, Coke, Vanilla coke... and I don't remember what else. We had lots of snacks too. At the end of the 3 hours, our throats were so sore my voice croaks as I speak. Well, we had to make every cents count, don't we? =)

For as long as I remember, he had refused my every invitation to ktv. He doesn't sing much, even when it's just the two of us. So yesterday was quite an achievement. =P It wasn't that high at first, with only me SS - ing, but he got the hang of it =D It was really enjoyable.

I had a great day, dear =) hugs hugs...... I know it's a big step for you. Cause you're soooo conservative, old man!!! hehe... (people might thought you're 10 years older than me, now.. hohoho)

Here I found another quiz that matches me. It explains clearly the inexplicable character I find weird, myself. I am pretty confident in myself, I like to be in charge and be he leader of the group, yet why do i often end up being the adorable one whom seniors love to tease? No matter how high and mighty I seem to others, especially my taekwon-do juniors =), my boyfriend is determined to treat me as a little girl, reluctance in me handling his gadgets, helping me check my important documents, assuming i'm childish and that my decision is immature, its kinda annoying to be treated this way..... though its sweet to be taken care of, but................. let's just see the results =)

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

I found this quiz on jess's blog. it was pretty enjoyable. lots of imagination. and the result is quite accurate.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
(Yes, I do think i'm wonderful, thank you very much =))

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
(That's what I used to think, not wasting time with people I don't really like, but now i wonder, maybe I should have collected some experience before getting together with the one I really like)

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
(i can be a bit hard on myself, sometimes....)

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
(I do have a knack for something wild, if I'm pushed or stressed...)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
(Yup, failure is something I don't quite accept....)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
(I like independence, yet afraid of no one to rely on.Quite a dilemma, but its true...)

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Once, I stretched up high into the sky
With no regards for what's around, I aimed higher and higher
It might be the shaky base
or the unstable midsection
I crumbled
and came tumbling down
For a long period of time, I wallowed in self-pity
I was drugged into unconsciousness by endless of what could have been
I was trapped in past achievements
unable to move forward

But now I know,
destruction is the best opportunity to construct something better than before =)