Life of a small boar

Today, I took the ring down from my finger and wear it instead on my necklace. Without the feel of that stainless steel's coldness between my fingers, it felt a little odd. Although it is no longer there, where it had rested for the past year, it will still be near to my heart. And I believe firmly that someday, it will go back to where it belongs.

Playing with my bare fingers, I realised that I have not fully recovered from the injury I got from basketball weeks ago. Like you know fully well, yes, I have been neglecting it, not applying medicine to it like I should. Perhaps tonight, before bed, I will put some oilment to it.

I spent most of the time in class today wondering how you're doing in class. I have to keep reminding myself why we made this decision. At a phase where we could no longer go forward nor turn back, we had to do something. Reading your blog made me feel so sorry that I put you through so much pain. But like you said, I believe in what the future holds.

It doesn't make much sense to me that I seem to miss you more today. For the first time in many weeks, I actually wonder what you have been doing, how has your day been and if you're okay.

Going through classes, getting on with life, I realised just how much things I had wanted to tell you. I've started on the project Mr Patrick gave me. It's not easy. I was bitten by an insect today. It stings. Khairani played with Shan Shan few days ago. It annoyed me. I am somehow more protective of it than of Xixi and Lele. I don't know why I didn't tell you then.

Nothing make sense to me. Yes, I still believe that this decision was necessary, I just didn't know that it'll hurt this much.