Thursday, December 30, 2010

Decisions

Big decisions are often not easy to make. Especially when either way can be life changing. It involves tons of thinking and fights between the heart and the mind. We may come to a decision today and to another tomorrow.

Standard advise from a fellow Christian will be to pray about it. However, even when we see signs from God and probes from the Spirit, we still doubt if we had interpret God's signals wrongly, if we had simply interpret it the way we want to or if it's simply something with no real meaning which we conveniently see it as answer from above. Lots of 'what if's'....

It's hard, especially when it involves things or people we care about deeply. Don't we just wish sometimes someone - or God will just jump right out and tell us to go right or left? That is what i had been wishing, but I know, it's a very irresponsible thought. Quoting from Aaroink;

” Well, to be completely honest and personal, I don’t believe that God will boom in his low-key voice and say, “Do exactly this,” or “Do exactly that,” and save the day. But I believe that God allows us to make our own decisions and He will give us the wisdom (our heads) and grace (our hearts) through the Holy Spirit (who is already in us) to do so."

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5

Today I woke up and saw this;

So if you feel afraid and unworthy today, Jesus says, “Don’t be afraid – I’ve got a new life for you.”

And I said, 'I know' =)

Sunday, December 26, 2010

#What's written below is purely of my own understanding and not out of any theology research.

What some people thinks:
There's no need to tell him/her what I think or how I feel. I'm sure that he/she knows, and that is what matters.

If communication and expression of love/care is not needed just because we expect the other side to know how we feel, than few things that would be totally unnecessary are prayers, praise and worship. God is knows all, of what we thinks, our deepest desire and secrets, our sins.. Why confess when He already knows what we committed? Why pray when He already knows what we want? Why tell Him how much we adore Him when He already knows?

I believe these communications help us build a personal relationship with Him. He wants us to talk to Him, just like we would a friend, a Father, to open to Him and trust Him with all we have. God made us like Him. Therefore, we need and crave just as much. Communication is a bridge that closes the gap between two persons and non-communication builds the wall that shunt people off.

Most important think ever is to love God and to love people. Thus, get connected to God and connect to people.

So it's important to say what you feel, but it's also important to mean what you say. me thinks......

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Happy Birthday, Jesus

When I was small, and Christmas was magical
It was a season of gifts and wonders
All I cared about was the inside
of those beautiful wrapped boxes

When I was older and knew
of that little Child born in the manger
For it me it was a heart-warming tale
Pictures of cozy hays, cute animals
bright shining stars and adoring shepherds

Only when I could understand better
what You were destined on this Earth for
slashed and whipped for our sins
a spotless Lamb, sacrificed
like a rose, trampled on the ground
to erase the wrongs on our behalf

Your birth signify something more
than Christmas tree, bells and holidays
You present to us gift of life, paid for
with Your pure and sacred blood
You snatched us from the valley of death
So we can come home to You one day

Thank You, Lord
Happy Birthday =)


Blessed Christmas, friends.
May you receive the true gift of Christmas
HuGGI3Ssss (^.^)

Sunday, December 5, 2010

I'll Never Fall In Love Again

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again


What do you get when you give your heart
You get it all broken up and battered
That's what you get, a heart that's shattered
I'll never fall in love again
I'll never fall in love again



sometimes, isn't it better if I just don't feel? hmmmmm

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Simple or complicated?

I have come to realised lately that when we're too simple, we may complicate things for people around us, which in turn complicate our life.

Perhaps world nowadays have layers underneath what we see, full of hidden meanings and reasons we may overlook with our bare eyes that people tends to neglect the possibility of simplicity.

A plain smile, just because I'm happy

A simple thank you, because I'm really grateful

A sincere apology, because I do feel sorry

A hearty conversation, because I like talking

A big bear hug, because I want/need one

A genuine friendship, because I like the way you are

I don't smile with tricks lurking in my mind

I don't thank just for the sake of it

I don't say sorry just to make you feel better

I don't make conversation that mean elsethings

I don't crave for flesh fulfillments

I don't befriend for hidden reasons

Be true to me, and you'll see what I'll do for you

One chance to my sincerity

Don't toy with my emotion

For I will not look back

However, at times

it's not enough that we understand these simplicity,

when others don't

Things are still complicated

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Dark clouds hovering over the space
blocking the moon from my sight
letting through not, a glimpse of light
pitched dark it is
with chilly winds

But I know
somewhere beyond, stars glitter
somewhere close, heart beats
somewhere inside, the Almighty still rules =)

Friday, October 29, 2010

Drowning...


Water's coming at a speed I can't outrun
locked in a room
water level's increasing to levels i have to tip-toe
it will cover me completely
soon..........

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Black Pearls

Often on my life journey, I step on brittle glass
and cut myself
At times, I pick up pretty plastic along the way, only to
have it turn ugly on me after a while
Sometimes, I see gorgeous ice sculptures I know
not meant to be in my grasp for it will melt

Yet I thank God, because occasionally
he let me find true gems I can keep for life
Some phases of life I found ruby and quarts
others I find amethyst and jade
certain chapters of life, I find
emerald and and topaz

Here and now, I thank God again
for I think, I may have found
a pair of black pearls =)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

People in life

Most people pass by my life,
walking in and leaving with minimal significance

Some came into my heart,
leave their footprints but left again like most

Few impacted my life deeply,
and chose to stay to this day

Welcome to my life, I hope you stay =)

Friday, October 15, 2010

Just being silly.....


I may tell the world that I don't care
Most of the time I convinced even myself
Yet at times when feelings deep down surface
I can't suppress the disappointment
of missing it again
that simple and childish experience of joy

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Come, Hugs =)

There are times when I just feel useless, powerless. I wish I can do something, but I dunno what to do, just in case it makes things worse. Yet, I can't just ignore it till you get over it yourself. *what a thing to do*

So I pray that God will do something. I know He will, and I know, that you know too. =)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Sometimes, it is hard to understand
Sometimes, a lil confusing

Yet however ridiculous it may seem
I know I can trust

I'm learning to be still and listen to Your voice. At times when You speak and it did not seem to make sense to me, I'm learning to submit and surrender. End of the day, I know You'll grant me peace and joy. Nothing else matter. =)

I love You

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Just when I thought it is not capable of anymore tears,
there it flows, freely down the cheeks

when tears dried and all drained up
it bled

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Drizzles

Sky's bright, with

rays shining on the green trees
Soothing winds, chirpy birds

and
it just has to rain, suddenly
as if the weather is my mood detector

the drizzle in me
though it's not heavy with storms and lightning
and though a sure thing it is the drizzle will soon stop
drizzling it is
here and now

though I know things will get better
like that rainbow after the drizzle
that beautiful diffracted light, however
drizzling it is
here and now

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Captive


When will I break free?


Saturday, August 21, 2010

God's Gift

It's amazing sometimes, how God knows exactly what we need and desire. He knows what I need, in this monotonous life I have in UTP, the desires I have to break this boring routine. His blessing and grace is more than enough for us. It might not have been what I had in mind, perhaps not the usual shopping therapy I normally yearn for, but it's better.

The Lord blessed me in the form of Vinod, Edmund and Angie =D It was some awesome time. Thanks, guys =D and a hearty thank to our Lord, Father. Huggies ALL (^.^)

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

1. 2. 3. Change!

This time around, I daresay I'm quite pleased with myself =)



I really can't thank God enough =D


And I pray hard hard that it stays either this way or less


Yes, I am shallow, happily so.
I'm a girl ^.^

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Life is worth.....?

So another young, successful and handsome Korean actor had killed himself. This is not something new in the Korean entertainment world. People are surprised, yet not that surprised. Shows how the community thinks it's a norm nowadays.

That is NOT right. Life should never be taken lightly. Life is precious. I don't mean I don't take lightly what he must have been going through. Depression can eats into a person. Yet, ending your own life should never be an option.

People are self-centered creatures. We may think we have the toughest life. PLEASE, open your eyes, mind and heart. Look around and you can find more unfortunate people striving for tomorrow.

I'm not a Jay Chou fan. But I really love the lyrics of this song. 'Dao Xiang'


對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
dui zhe ge shi jie ru guo ni you tai duo de bao yuan

跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
die dao le jiu bu gan ji xu wang qian zhou

為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
wei she me ren yao zhe me de cui ruo duo luo

請你打開電視看看
qing ni da kai dian shi kan kan

多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
duo shao ren wei sheng ming zai nu li yong gan de zhou xia qu

我們是不是該知足
wo men shi bu shi gai zhi zu

珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
zhen xi yi qie jiu xuan mei you yong you

When you harbor endless whines and complains towards the world
When you fall and loose the guts to move forwards
Why are human such weak creatures?
Would you please on the television
and see how many are fighting courageously to move forward in life?
Shouldn't we be contented?
Appreciate everything even if you think you don't have much



R.I.P Park Yong Ha


ps. Lord, please strengthen the heart, soul and spirit of your people in this end of the time era. Amen

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I am touched

While news of animal testing lab is all hyped, when every other day we hear of pets abandoned, doggies put to sleep just because of mild injuries, when we can't help but question human hearts nowadays, a picture like this reminds me that someone cares and the world is not yet hopeless.


See how happy that hound-doggie looks?
It must be all the love from its master.
I'm touched, by how much he cares for this dog.


Life goes on for this brown darling. It doesn't look depressed. In fact, it's far from depressed. *what don't breaks us makes us stronger* It's an amazing sight =)

ps. if only our community cares just s much for these adorable creatures.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

I love cupcakes

they just make me go
'awwwwhhhhhh'

now can you help but smile back at them?


it felt like those simple satisfaction
and outright happiness of playing
SUPER MARIO


Just like that sweet sweet puppy love,ya know



Now I know life is not a bed of cupcakes

but can you give me just one?
please
pweety pweetty please?

see?
It's just as sweet
It might not have the puppy love effect
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but kitty love will do just fine =)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

will you fight for me?

will you?

got this from here

Monday, June 14, 2010

Who are we to judge?

Why are human so quick to judge?
Do we get satisfaction or a sense of righteous at listing others' wrong?
Do we feel superior by labeling others a level lower to us?

How often though, have we wailed
That no one seems to understand us?
That people mistreat us?
That people spread nasty gossips unfair to us?
That some friends turned backstabber?
That we felt so alone?
Well, have we ever thought that the same girl/boy we're bitching about might be going through the same thing?
I wonder

She's right.
We know only her name, and perhaps a little of what we see with our eyes. How much more sides to her life is there that we know not of? What gives us the right to tell her she's wrong?

She's right.
We are not her. We'll never know what she went through and why she made this decision. We can encourage or advise, but who are we to decide for her? Who are we to say what she should and should not do? She has her reasons, and if she choose not to share, what right do we have to squeeze it out of her?

He's right.
Just because he's a generally nice person does not make him a saint! Emotion is a part of human being, and just because he lost his temper ONCE, does not make him a bad tempered person with no sportsmanship.

He's right.
Just because he's young and successful at young age, does not mean he's from a well off family, fed off from gold spoon since day one on Earth. Btw, what if he is? Why the bother? Why are human so bitter about others' success, determine to find loophole that he did not make the money himself? If one's so eager to comment, then please search thoroughly on his childhood before doing so.

She's right.
Kind and generous does not equals to a doormate, and not helping people on every request presented to her does not mean she's not kind.

And there are these about her, her, him, them, her, him and many more.
We do not know what happened in their lives. Do not add salt to their wound. If we have no good things to say, and be content with our mouths shut!

Especially on relationships, be it friends or couples. If we are not a party involved, then we will NEVER know for sure what exactly happen. I wouldn't go so far as to say there's o right and wrong. I believe there IS right and wrong in a relationship, but we shall never know for sure, who's right and who's wrong. If our friend is involved, it's natural to be one sided, however, be a comfort, but not a a decision maker. It's not our decision to make.

I'm definitely no better than anyone else. When juicy gossip turns my way, hard to resist isn't it? ;P This post serves as a reminder to me and anyone else who reads, I guess =)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

1#.Senseless

One thing I don't understand is why people like to say this.

Some ppl: You're not going to finish your food?
Me: Full dy la.

Them: Such a waste. Not nice meh?
Me: Full dy. Will be bloated if I keep eating. You eat la.

Them: You finish your own food la. Think of the people in Africa.

Question of the day,
even if I finish my food, how does it help those people? They feel full if I'm bloated? ishhhh...

Monday, June 7, 2010

heartbreaking

Sent an email to my supplier, and this came back. So disheartening >.<

Just in case it's too small to be read, here's what it says

"Today is our replacement holiday in Malaysia. I will be back to office on tomorrow, 8 June 2010."

why my company don't have? why? why? why?


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